At a cafe, I was just exploring my inner self. About being

At a cafe, I was just exploring my inner self. About being “abroad.”

Today, I woke up at 12:00. I had a content marketing meeting to attend after noon. It was about 7:00 AM when I was eventually able to go to bed. I had been working on banners all through the night today, and that made me tired. But the content marketing meeting was fun. We shared our thoughts and ideas with each other as we worked out a strategy and created something together. I really enjoy this kind of thing. Of course, it is only with people you are comfortable with. If it had been a meeting with someone I didn’t like or wasn’t interested in, it would have been a little less powerful, but I really enjoyed talking with someone who has a similar worldview. Maybe this is also a gift.

At the same time, I am learning about the company. How do you create a vision and how do you quantify the goals? I feel nothing but happiness to be able to think and talk about these things together. I would like to establish a company in the next two years. That’s what I’m thinking. No, I intend to do so. And so, the content marketing meeting was over. I always feel very comfortable. I wonder why it is so calm. I don’t feel like I’m in a company. Of course, that’s because I don’t work for a company, but I really feel like I’m an important colleague. It’s wonderful. I don’t know.



I drink a glass of water and think about where I am going to go

With this in mind, I drink water. It is said that humans lose 10 liters of water per day, and the higher the altitude and the more developing countriesthe more liters are lost. I am currently living at an altitude of 1,700 meters, so I would definitely lose water. So I drank a lot of water.

I also decided to go for a walk because I wanted to go somewhere, even though it was Saturday, and I had gained weight from staying at home all day yesterday. I decided to walk to the hill where there was a cafe the other day. Actually, it is very far. There is a bus, but I didn’t want to take the bus because it is full of people, and walking is better for my health, so I decided to walk. But when I got out, the car was sticky. Yes, today is a rainy day. I live underground, so there’s not much light, and I can’t tell if it’s raining or not until I get outside. It’s not raining right now, so I grab my umbrella and start walking.



Now I wonder, “Will I make friends?”, “Will I have a girlfriend?”, “Will I get married?”, “I can make money, but will I be able to survive for the next month?”

For some reason, my eyes looked sad today. I naturally looked down. Will I be able to survive on next month’s salary? I wonder if I will be able to make friends. When I was walking on the street and thinking about it on a loop made me feel sad even more, even though of course it was a time for introspection.

When I was in Russia, on the contrary, I felt like I was dying because there were too many people, and now I feel like I’m dying because there are too few people. I guess I’m lonely. I changed my mind firmly, and now I came here not to meet people or anything, but to make an inspection tour by myself anyway. I think it would be good if I could think like this.

If I can think this way about myself, I can switch over, and I won’t be sad. When I order at a café, I order with a dead look in my eyes. I don’t like that. I want to order in a perfect state. I don’t like it when people think I’m mentally weak, but it can’t be helped.

That makes it hard for me to go into cafes. With this conflict in my mind, I walk up the street, envying the couples, families, and smiling people. It is an uphill walk, so it is strenuous. Finally, I arrived at the street where the café was located. It took me quite a while to get there, but I was glad I did. There were many cafes, but I ended up at a café called Entree.



This is a Georgia chain store. But I think it’s very nice. I like it. I went into another cafe, but I didn’t feel good about it because I didn’t have anything else to eat. Besides, the customers there were looking at my clothes with their eyes moving, which was very disgusting. I was wearing a Burberry chester coat, so because of this maybe.



Eating bread on the terrace of a cafe, I hope that I will love Georgia in the future

So at the cafe I had my usual cappuccino, small hachapuri, and then some bread shaped like a cigarette with the word “cigarettes” on it. I decided to work outside, so I went to the outside terrace, and I thought it would be nice because there was a seat available at the far end, but there was one problem: there was a big dog sleeping in the aisle. So I had to straddle the dog. It was so big that I had to spread my legs. I thought it was very interesting because you can’t experience something like this in Japan.

Of course, this is not the best time to be a freelancer, and there are many trials and tribulations, but I am sure that I will love Georgia. So, I hope to buy an apartment here and go there whenever I want to. I think it is really wonderful to be able to go abroad like this.



By the way, I noticed something yesterday. When I told my French friend about my difficulty in making friends, she said, “It is very difficult for a traveler to make friends.” Let’s think about it. For example, if a French woman who is my type talks to me on Tinder and wants to meet, I’ll meet her. But if a woman from a country I am not interested in wants to meet me, would I meet her? No, I would not. I would not.

Even if I wanted to be friends with her, she would stay only temporarily and leave immediately, so it would be difficult to establish a long-term friendship. So, I don’t meet them. That’s right. That’s the way it is. In other words, it is difficult for travelers to make friends in the first place. That was a great discovery. So, in the introduction of Tinder, you should not write “I’m a traveler” but “I live here”. I think that’s another great discovery.



Today, I am just pondering. This is how I look inside myself to see what I see

I am sad now. If I give myself time to think about it, it makes me really sad. I know that I am losing my self-confidence, and that makes me sad and frustrated. I want to live my life overseas with a more lively self. Until now, I have been very lively abroad, but not in Japan. I was shutting myself away in Japan. But the reason for this was, of course, that overseas is a different world and the best, and I felt that I was having so much fun that I didn’t have time to think even such a things, but there was another reason. I think it was because “I went with more than one person” and because I was there for a small period of time, “a two-week stay”.

It can be really, really hard to stay alone for a long period of time. Of course, I wondered how I would meet people. So, I am introverted and very shy, but I need to do something about it, become diplomatic, and gain the confidence to be able to talk to people on the street. If you have confidence, you can definitely do it. Because I could do it in Russia.

So, how do you build that confidence? It is trial and error, and first of all, you have to try. Of course, at first you will fail because you don’t have confidence, but if you experience small successes (for example, even if you can’t talk to someone and have a meal, you can still exchange insta messages), you will surely gain a little confidence. And then it builds up and builds up and builds up, and you keep improving and improving, and finally you can do something without any resistance. That is the absolute route. So, first of all, I want to be able to do that. I will work hard to make that happen.



Periodic selfies


I was working in a cafe when a lady came up to me and asked if I spoke a little Russian. It seems that she require some money. I knew I looked like I had some money or she wanted some money. The other day, when Nata and I went to a sushi restaurant, I got about 30 coins in change (0.2 lalicoins), which was very annoying and still very heavy, so I took the opportunity and gave it to her. It was a good thing I did, because it meant something to give, whether the lady was cheating or destitute. It made me feel happy. I felt that there really is nothing more gratifying than doing something for someone.

So, I walked back to the flat. On the way home, I listened to techno music. I felt that walking while listening to techno music made my legs faster and gave me confidence, which was really nice. My eyes were clearer and full of confidence thanks to this music, a little after arriving home, I went to the supermarket. Today I bought pasta and Immerlian Khachapuri. At that time, a man wearing a chester coat said to me, “I love your trench coat,” and I immediately said, “Thank you”. In fact, I then spoke to him and said, where are you from? and also I wanted to say, “Your black chester coat is cool too!” but I was too shy to say it. Aaah…! Oh, God… It’s really like this all the time.